Friday, May 20, 2011

my character.

Would you like to hear a story?

Once upon a time there was this boy named Ben and this girl named Fiona.
Ben and Fiona happened to be sitting next to each other on the bus. Because Fiona was tired and had a massive headache, she wasn't willing to strike up a gripping conversation with Ben.
But Ben took this personally and called her a loner.
And then Ben proceeded to preach to Fiona about the importance of relationships, and how instead of going home, it would benefit your life more if you went out made friends.
Thoroughly ticked off, Fiona went home, took some Tylenol and then furiously blogged about their encounter.
The end.

Am I a loner? Maybe.
I'm just not someone who puts a priority on friendships.
I put my family as a first.
Then my studies and schoolwork.
Then my extracurricular activities, like swimming and bassoon.
Perhaps after that would come friendships and my relationship with others.
It's quite far down the list.

I'm aware that my beliefs are much different than most people. I'm extremely realistic and frank, almost painfully so.
I know what I'm capable of achieving, and I know when things are out of my reach.

I also very conscious about money.
I don't lust after things I know my family can't afford, so naturally I've learned not to ask.
Because of this, I especially hate people who complain about things they don't have.
I think it's disgusting how all they can think about is themselves, and how they don't realize how lucky they are to be in the position to be able to worry about petty things like that.

I'm sometimes perceived as a nasty person because I don't like to give fake praise.
If someone asks me for their opinion on their work, I will give my truthful thoughts on it. I won't sugarcoat it, or just simply say that it's good.
If I don't like it, I will tell them and say why.
Which nine times out of ten, cause them to get angry at me. Which I don't get.
Don't ask for my honest opinion if you aren't willing to listen to what I have to say.

And that concludes the end of my spiel.
I know that it was chaotic and you probably didn't follow half of my thoughts.
But it feels good to let that out.
I really hope that this post doesn't change how you think about me.


ZoeWrites said...

I actually like this post! It's good to let your feelings out :D
People shouldn't judge you just because you haven't said anything, or shouldn't judge you at all!
I also don't like people who ask for honest opinion and get angry with you when you're angry too...
All in all, this post hasn't changed how I think of you, it just shows that you're an honest person :D
I love your blog so much! Keep writing, yeah?

dirtycowgirl said...

Actually Fi up until now I had no thoughts about 'you', other then I like what you write - but having read this I think I quite like you. I am exactly the same, I know a lot of people but have very few close friends and I don't have a need to see them all the time.
I also believe in honesty, it's VERY important to me - and as such I am always honest with other people - often causing offense.
But you ask for my opinion you get it. It just took me a long time to get like this and not care what others think, I admire you for reaching that point and the self confidence it takes, so young.

I would've told Ben to fuck off lol.

Jenna said...

Once there was also this time where I thought I was abnormal and a freak too...because of how honest I was. I was just like you. Am just like you. When people ask me what they think of something they created or wrote, I don't give them the typical flattering answer they'd like to hear. I tell them the truth, which is often blunt coming from me, because I judge hard on everything. And, gosh, because I play the piano on a high level, I know there is no such thing as too perfect.

Don't be afraid of telling people the truth, even if it's not the exact thing they'd like to hear. I trust that one day they will wake up and realize you were right, and that you weren't trying to offend them--just help them become better people. As for right now...we honest ones have to persevere. Truth is so rarely found in today's world of deceptions and secrets. If you have enough courage to accept and embrace it, it means you're something.

Ashley said...

If anything, I like you even more now. I respect that you're so realistic and logical.

Not everyone is concerned with socializing. I may be, but I wouldn't consider you a loner just because we're different.

& I agree on the note of people getting offended by honest opinions. Why ask for the truth when you want to hear a possible lie?

Anyway, jolly good post! ♥

Jodie-Ann said...

You and I are very alike.
I write stories and always ask my friends to read them. I feel like my stories are my babies. And I'M SERIOUS. So, when someone says, "In one of the chapters, you need to fix this..." or whatever, I become so annoyed and frustrated. Even though I know I shouldn't because the person is helping my story. xD Then, afterwards, it's all good. I fix the part, they tell me another part that's messed up, I get angry, I fix it, and it begins again. XD

Fang said...

For me, friends are more important than family. Frioends are, in essence, family you chose yourself.

Kuroneko said...

Priorities are placed differently by different people :)
To each her own. Although I agree with most of what you said. :D
It's perfectly alright to be frank, but sometimes it might come out sounding harsh. :(

mayen said...

I like this post so truthful. I also enjoy my time with my family and rarely go out with friends because I choose and i am happier with my family.

Just keep doing what you love to do. :)

Lioness Without A Pride said...

IF anyhting, I like you more now.

Lioness Without A Pride said...

*If anything, I like you more now.
We all have our quirks.
You don't like people all that much, I don't like typos.
It's who we are.
Like Kuro said, to each her own.

Furree Katt said...

i like you very much. :D and i think poor Ben was just thinking about what's best for you when he was preaching haha
i'm a bit of a loner when it comes to meeting people for realz. i prefer the warmth of the blog-world.
it is very good that you're conscious about money, and aware of how it can/should be spent. and it's so annoying when people get bugged by an honest opinion, especially when they ask for it!
♥ it's good that you let it all out!

Stephanie said...

I really like this post. It's fascinating and very honest. I love that you know yourself. I think that's a big step to having good relationships with other people--if you want them.


Delilah said...

Being fake and cloyingly sweet JUST because the other expects it, is bull.
And its nice to be practical because you are not deceiving yourself.
I think you are a very clear-in-the-head person fiona, and you are quite awesome too =)

Fiona said...

ZoeWrites: I think that judging is natural, because I feel like everyone does it subconciously. But I just don't like people who think that their judgment is everything about me.
Thank you, and I plan on writing for a long time. [:

Dirtycowgirl: I'm like you. I don't need to have friends around me all the time in order to feel secure.
Thank you for the comment on self confidence. It took a while for it to build up.
And I did tell Ben to fuck off. I don't think we're going to be talking to each other for a while, ahaha.

Jenna: You make a very good point. Being honest sometimes is the hardest thing you can do, because you know that the person doesn't want to hear what you truely think.
And it does take a lot of courage. So kudos to you. :D

Ashley: I think that it's fine to be extremely social. It's just a different set of beliefs, and it doesn't harm me in any way, so I'm fine.
And thank you!

Jodie-Ann: I think we all get frustrated when we hear something we didn't want to know. But it's good how you get over it. (:

Fang: That's true. But I'm someone who loves my family very much, but you might be someone who feels that way about your friends.
So we just believe different things, which isn't a big deal.

Kuroneko: Being frank almost always comes out harsh. Which is bad. Very bad.

Mayen: I'm like you. I don't feel the need to always go out, because I'm glad to be in the company of my family.

Lioness: Thank you.
And it's good that people are unique. If they were all the same, the world would be an awful place.

Furree Katt: I like you too. [:
And as cheesy as it may sound, I feel like the blog-world is more warm than the real world.
I feel good that I let that out too.

Stephanie: It took me a while to realize what I am. At first I didn't like it at all, but then I got over it and embraced it.
I want relationships with other people, but I don't want them to be extremely time consuming.

Delilah: I hate fake people. Hate hate hate them.
And I'm not sure how clear-in-the-head I am, but I'm getting there!

ishashime said...

well now, that was quite a read! i must admit, i admire you for being so honest towards yourself and others. because that's really the only way to go. everyone has different priorities and if you meet someone who tries to change yours or disapproves of yours, then i don't think that person should be worth a second look. you should be accepted as who you are and what you believe in.

also, i think Ben was just trying to help. :)

Fiona said...

Ishashime: You make a very good point.
I think people should be able to respect different views and values without looking down upon them. I think being able to do that is a mark of a good person.

And he might of tried to help, but it made me irritated anyway ahahaha.

Melissa said...

I really enjoyed this post. I completely understand what your talking about, as my own priorities are pretty much synonymous with yours. And I don't think there's anything wrong with it. Everything at the top of the list will remain throughout your life, but how many Grandmas and Grandpas are out there kickin it with their buddies? In the end, it's your relationship with your family that you should nurture!

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lucy said...

haha, your encounter with ben is a lot like my encounters with most strangers/people who don't know me. yeesh, can't they stop thinking that everyone has to be sociable like them to survive? sometimes, we have higher priorities, or other things occupying my mind to bother talking to every person we meet...

Fiona said...

Melissa: It's good to know that you share the same views as me. [:
And your point about being a grandparent makes sense, when I'm old I would want my family to take care of me.

Lucy: Exactly.
Talking isn't always the most important thing.

The Blog Writer said...

Woah! I love this post! In fact, I might have gotten from it an answer I've been racking my head for. Thanks!

Fiona said...

I'm glad that I could help. (:

iZaynab said...

Pish Posh. He's the loner here.
Depending on others to talk to.
Then when they don't, takes it personally ~
Let them talk about you.
Cause they must really be interested in you to tell you all this.
Like iGet called tons of stuff & iAccept it as a compliment.
If I'm a loner, yay ~
iDon't get to sit near idiots. WIN !